why didn't anyone tell me about the horrible fours?

I look at Sean and Will with disbelief as they spiral out of control, again, bouncing off each other, pushing boundaries and shredding months of theories and expectations, again. and I smile. I chuckle. I laugh. my palette is just as emphatic. yes, things change. and kids grow up. lately I've felt like my life paused its hectic course. momsterhood is now almost recreational. I do not roll out of bed every morning and spend my day working out the kinks of my life. I start noticing things. clouds throw dapples of shadow over the busy streets framing babies wearing tiny hats with perfectness. solitude is not as precious a commodity, but it also comes bearing the resonance of meditation.

Comments

[Vanessa_AR]

I bet you do indeed enjoy your alone time much more now than you did before Will and Sean. Do you even GET any alone time anymore??

[Alex]

This is beautiful depitcting so much well written with perfect words showing the transitions of time you must be expierencing.

[jenny vorwaller]

time alone??? what is that?!

[christina]

Irene this post made me sigh, and then smile, and then remember to breathe. I love how you write--and more than that, I love WHAT you write. I'm glad your starting to feel in balnance even with the turmoil of two four year olds.

How crazy. FOUR. I simply can't imagine, but I know I'll be calling you often when my son hits that age... by then, your boys will be EIGHT. Now that's something to knock your socks off! :)

[la vie en rose]

I can't image 2 at the same age. Wow! I can barely handle my 1. I love your writing...so beautiful and insightful...

[Steph.]

I could so relate to your feelings here, Irene. And it sounds like you're in a good place. I am happy for you!

[kassi]

I'm working to be where you are...maybe I should think less and be more.

[Crazy Us]

I always love your life observations. You are so beautifully articulate and you always make me appreciate how great it is to be a mother of boys. Thank you for that Irene.

[melanie]

i remember being so naive: i thought the so-called 'terrible twos' ended after the second year. yeah, right. they keep on going -- many times more intense -- on into the third and fourth and even fifth years! sounds like you have a good head about it, though -- you do have to laugh, you do have to focus on other things, and you do have to grasp at what solitude you can!

[bella]

somehow i got lucky. the two's were good, the three's were terrible, and up 'till now four has been a breeze.