changes

some of you have emailed me and expressed concern about Finn (we are still waiting for lab results but she's doing better, thank you all so much) and asked me why I am not writing on my blog anymore.

a few weeks ago I was diagnosed with a chronic throat infection caused by stress and was faced with difficult decisions about my life. I also quit my job, and thought for a while about what to do with this little place of mine.

when my husband gave me my first Polaroid camera as a Christmas present last year, I had no idea that the little experiment would soon become a source of inspiration. an opportunity to see and express things differently. and that I would enjoy it so much.

I hope that the images that I will share with you here will remind you to take delight in the beauty that emerges from our every day life. I hope that you'll continue to visit me. I hope to become a better photographer, a better writer. I hope that you understand. that it was getting a bit too hard for me.

today I'm taking my writing out of the house, away from the desk, from the frustration. from this blog. in the park, on the bus. in a café while life is happening all around me. I sit musing, pen in hand. I walk, I read. I garden. I cook. I take better care of myself.

today I am able to look honestly into the eyes of the three men who love me and say "you know what? I think I'm happy". and it's the best feeling in the world.

Comments

[Vanessa]

You sound like you're feeling better than you have in a long time, so the camera must be good therapy. Take care of yourself and know you can write me any time you need me, my friend!

[Sam]

This is all so very, very good. Your happiness and well-being is the most important thing in the world. Enjoy this time with your boys! We'll be here whenever you feel like sharing your world with us...

[Aimee]

Irene, this is such an inspiration post. Bravo. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I look forward to your next photos!

[Char]

Irene I'm very glad to hear this, you need to make yourself happy and live life...happy. I'm excited to see your photos.

[jennifergg]

I came late to the party that was Momster, but I'm really glad I came never-the-less. Be well and keep in touch.

[magillicuddy]

I'm glad to hear you will continue in a different vein, and I hope you (and Finn) are on the road to recovery... I'll keep logging on ! Happy Polaroiding

[tomoko]

I'm very sorry to hear about chronic throat infection. I do hope the changes you are making in life will help you quickly heal. I'm loving all your images posted. You take images just like you write.

[alex]

I haven't been here for a while, sometimes the most painful knowledge can incite wonderful change. I think this news might morph into just what you need, time for you.

[tut-tut]

I haven't been here in quite a while, but saw your wonderful box you sent to blackbird. Actually writing on paper and in a journal, away from the screen--I think that is the direction I want to go in myself. I find that I'm more constricted rather than less so in this format (the blog), and feel more at ease commenting on others' writing. Hmm. Wonderful photos. It is fun to explore the power of the camera.

[Carol]

Hope you'll still visit us from time to time at Kimchi Mamas! Thank you Irene.

[Simply Me]

I think being able to look at the people you love most in the world and tell them that you are really happy is the most beautiful thing on earth.

This kind of happiness is what all of us are searching for. It seems simple but not everyone of us can do it.

You are truthfully my source of inspiration! Thank you!

[Charmaine]

Irene, has it really been almost a month since I last visited your weblog...where has the time gone. I love the new format, expecially if it is what works best for you. I'll email soon -- hugs!

[Waya]

Oh Irene! I'm so sorry I didn't even realize you were going through this. No wonder I haven't seen your name at Parentdish in awhile.

Hang in there my friend, you know I'm only an email away!

[Heather]

Wow!! great! I'm so happy for you. I can't believe this is the first time I've read this. I'm glad you are happy.

[mia]

irene i'm glad to know these things...take care..