a lesson is repeated until it's learned

I've wailed, cried, conjured, blamed and hated. 4 years. I've lived with the agony of someone who is standing on a boat lurching with every jolt of the water. and I think it's time for me to stop. letting go of my resentment for the unpredictability of my husband's business trips is the most intelligent choice I've made in my life. and the easiest one. it's not about sacrifice or compromise. not even acceptance or surrender. it is a small shift teaching me that stability is more about consistency of the heart and less about the circumstances of my life.

Comments

[carol]

I'm proud of you! I wish I could get to that place with a lot of things!
P.S. Chris LOVED his goodies from the Tour de France. Thank you for following through on that!!!!

[Marilyn]

This is a BIG lesson (she says as someone who still struggles to release some of her resentments). Good for you!

[Flare]

Yay! Teach me how to do it too!

[Lucinda]

Always good to write it down-- and re-read it whenever you feel yourself slipping.

[jennie]

Very impressive - and hopefully inspiring. I constantly want to know what is going to happen and when it will happen, but your statement is incredibly true. Consistency of the heart is SO much more important.
Thank you.

[bella]

very inspiring. i try to think of myself as a non-resentful person but it's hard. i do have to say that i've let go of alot of pain - just because. don't look back. live in the moment and onward you go.
~do you girls all have blogs? I don't have one, i just reeb in and read them all.

[jakapk]

Power to you Irene! and how freeing it must be!

[blackbird]

I think...
this is very smart.

[Nicole]

I want to be there, but I'm not. Still resenting the late evenings, the unpredictable schedule, the pages that never stop. But you've inspired me. I hope I can join you soon in letting go.