a bundle of paradoxes

I feel good and I feel conflicted, swaying from one thought to another yet unable to land my boat on familiar territory.

I love writing and love that it is my job. yet sometimes the frequent interruptions and the obligations I must commit to surface a frustration and stress level I am certainly not comfortable with.

I know the person I want to be but hold on to a spiritual quality I have erased to make it easier to get on with living.

I love my children more than life. yet I can't wait to put them to bed at night.

I'm grateful for my body but resent the way it looks.

I love bloglines. I miss blogging.

Comments

[Chris]

*hug*
It's so hard to get the balance to work, isn't it?

[Kat]

Hi Irene! Just wanted to drop by today (been meaning to for a while now) and say "Hi!" I've been having blog-envy over your work :-) and finally got the guts to actually say it out loud. Your vulnerability and courage are admirable. Thanks for the inspiration. - fellow momster, Kat

[courtney]

I love the last two lines...nothing could be more true.

[Erin (Erin-erin-bo-berin)]

With three very active daughters demanding my attention for 16+ hours of each 24, I've begun referring to time in the evenings as 'T-Minus 30 minutes until ME TIME'.

[erica]

...you took the words out of my mouth.

[Ninotchka]

Irene, you are a MIND READER. The first line encompasses my feelings today exactly. Soon they will change again, I'm sure. Ah, life!

[alex]

Its Feburary and with it we all seem to be struggling with some sort of inner or outer battle. Its hard to do what is demanded of you and still be true to your self, the delicate balance of living is so great at times it seems easier to plunge into self doubt and darkness. We must keep our faces raised to possible rays of light, and see good in the struggle of not being everything we could be.

[la vie en rose]

life is a tangle of paradoxes...

[Ronica]

I miss you.

:)

[Marilyn]

Life would be so boring without its contradictions... I worship Bloglines. :)

[mama_tulip]

I think that's been one of the hardest aspects of becoming a mommy -- balancing everything so that everyone, including myself, gets what they need.

If you figure it out, be sure to let me know, okay?

[Melissa]

sometimes balance in our lives seem out of reach. dare i say that it is just a phase and soon you will get your groove back?

[Charmaine]

Such good points. Just like how we drive on a parkway and park on a driveway.

[melanie]

i can SO relate to all of this, Irene!

[jess]

i miss you too! beautiful words, as always.

xo

[christina]

OOH, I'm commenting twice but I can't help it. I just checked in and saw your updated "this month" stuff. Happy blogaversary!! I cannot believe you've accomplished all this bloggy goodness in one year. Seriously. You are SOOO amazing!